life is full of  ups and down...in my case way more of downs and as for ups well i am stll searching ........it is so damm tuff
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.......to get sucess that is ...i dont know why i am not studying these days ....i just go thru some raw data  of gk during the day but thats bout it .......need to gather up motivation and just do it

after giving cat my hea\rt is full of mixed emotion ....very honestly speaking i have no idea how my paper went .......so the result can be mixed ...it can antythng fron great to pathetic ... and that makes me really scared .....iguess i should not think bout it but what to do ...human tendency
mind wanders where  you dont want it to ,.........i guess i just have to conc on my rest og the papers ...there is notrhing i can do now which will change my cat paper result....i hope god sees my pain n struggle and finally gives me some push into the positive sucessb which i so desperately long for so long .......i have lost so much that i cant take it anymore ...i mean      i......come on i deserve some stability some sucess in life ....hope god helps me this time and does not leave me in the middle like last time............