after giving cat my hea\rt is full of mixed emotion ....very honestly speaking i have no idea how my paper went .......so the result can be mixed ...it can antythng fron great to pathetic ... and that makes me really scared .....iguess i should not think bout it but what to do ...human tendency
mind wanders where  you dont want it to ,.........i guess i just have to conc on my rest og the papers ...there is notrhing i can do now which will change my cat paper result....i hope god sees my pain n struggle and finally gives me some push into the positive sucessb which i so desperately long for so long .......i have lost so much that i cant take it anymore ...i mean      i......come on i deserve some stability some sucess in life ....hope god helps me this time and does not leave me in the middle like last time............